real-i-zation

Don't discourage me if you cant encourage
that hurts me a lot
don't tear me apart,if you think you own me
am not a piece of cloth.

I was never a good student,
I never stood first
I never claimed to be the front runner
when I lose, please dont feel aghast.

I share my fears to feel good
when you take them as my weakness
You never told me I bogged u down
I burdened you and made you feel helpless.

I talk sweet, I am a motor mouth
that does'nt give you the chance
I respect you, so I abided few ideas
never thought you will insult,for instance.

I might seem childish,confused or just impulsive
call me what you want now
remember, even I know  what struggle means
even the thick soils needs to get ploughed.

I dont think I am great,
I never said that I do.
I always thought I'll make it big
am I at fault for this too?

You don't know anything about me,
still I let you talk, no end to what follows.
I call you people my loved ones
GUYS, that does not mean ,rubbish will I swallow.

I don't think small of people
neither do I want them to feel
Just because I am treading rough paths
don't preach me what is real.

I am disgusted with the expectations
I hate it when you say.
give me some time just to realize
don't scare me with each passing day.

Its not your fault I know
I have digged out my own grave, love
But trust me, I'm quite sure this time
my life's gonna be great above.